I don’t want to live a life in which the government has already planned out my entire future- Study once High School is over, work until I’m old and then die as if my life has been fulfilled. How can a life be beautiful and succeeded if it hasn’t left behind anything except from a family name?
I can’t stand the idea of growing up, eventually dying without helping along to a different world. Not for me, but for the million others that will come after me. I want to be useful, I don’t want to get locked up in some silly office for 30 years.
Though I have dreams, like studying and travelling, I barely can see myself living in the same old home for 20 years while being married and having kids. Then you wake up almost every single day to do the same riddle of making breakfast, leaving to work, returning, going to bed and wake up the next day.
Isn’t that boring, I always want to ask other people including my parents. They don’t seem to want a different life, they seem to appreciate what they have.
Recently I saw a video of really old people who said they had fulfilled their lives and they were done with it. They wanted to die because they didn’t find their life worthy anymore. Some male figure said something along the lines of: ‘You wake up around 8, you eat breakfast and then you wait for time to pass. Nine o’clock, ten o’clock, eleven, twelve… And then, once you reach the evening you are too tired so you go to bed early. The next day you wake up, thinking: Oh, darn. I’m still alive.”’
I understand them, I would see myself feeling the same way if I had such a boring life too but I don’t understand what is so different about their life compared to an adult’s life. You wake up, you do what you do and you go to bed.
Sure, the ideal life I would love to have is quite extreme in all ways; Oh please let me wake up in a hotel most of the days, in all sorts of countries and capitals. Let me travel the world while continuing with the hobbies I have. Let me relax and let me explore. Let me learn about the world and let me share my knowledge with as many people as possible.
If I turn super old and I haven’t fulfilled my life the way I wanted it to be, I’d be so disappointed. I don’t want the standard life, but there is not much I can do about it; Travelling costs money, education costs money. Everything costs money and the only way to, legally, get money is to work.
Ugh, just a little rant. Sorry for not uploading as recently. I’m not in the mood.